Being on a budget is hard. Especially in this season when we want special treats and also to be generous to friends, family and those in need.
I quoted this verse to Forest, my husband, last night when we were dealing with a leaking water pipe in our basement and other unexpected expenses.
“Better a little with the fear of the Lord than great wealth with turmoil.”
Proverbs 15:16 NIV
It is only now that we are in a season of Forest being in school and starting his own business and eating the same soup a a few days in a row, that we can experience the truth of this verse. We struggle with fears of the unknown but overall we are more happy than when he was making 6 figures. We are learning this secret. The secret of a good Father who has our backs and is leading us on a new path somewhere very good and changing our values.
And now I humbly admit that we still live a very privileged life. We have never gone hungry for a day or felt the threat of losing our home. There are always piles of clothes that I could donate somewhere etc… we aren’t worried about our car breaking down. One could rightfully argue that I still have great wealth. But I don’t want to go down that comparison road at this time.
What I want to share is that I am learning contentment and delighting in the little treats and gifts that I can buy.
The verse says “better is a little” not “better is nothing”. I used to have a poverty mentality as a young adult where I ate way too little food and didn’t wear any nice clothes and felt so guilty about buying anything extravagant ever. That is not what I am saying!! I am very much excited about spending some money and enjoying some nice chocolate. I still have moments of OCD panic but am overcoming that one treat and gift at a time.
Forest is studying to be a financial planner and he says one of the most important questions to ask is “how much is enough?” Enough. That illusive edge that makes advertisers tremble in their boots. I challenge you to find your enough this season and enjoy it with all of your heart.
Happy Holidays. May these last days of 2020 be holy and special.